Dang these homework questions in Chapter 8 LOL.
According to Chrystal Evans Hurst, we are all carrying precious cargo: gifts, talents and abilities that are unique to us. She writes that it is our responsibility to move through life well; to operate in full awareness of the possibilities that lie within us. It is our assignment to steward what we have been given and our job to get the contents within us deposited safely at their destination.
Pastor Duane at Victory Life Church used to tell us that a lawnmower serves no purpose in the dessert. It could even be a top of the line, high end, amazing lawnmower with all of the bells and whistles. But, if it’s not in the right environment, it’s purpose is not going to be fulfilled. That is exactly where I feel like I am in this current phase and season of life if it’s not where I’ve been all of my adult life. I’m not even sure what environment I belong in. It’s like I’ve been pursuing a long-term “trial and error” learning experience without ever “knowing” exactly where I am supposed to be and what I am supposed to be doing. I got pregnant in high school and was forced to move out. So I got a job. I raised kids. I paid bills. I did what I had to do to survive. But, what do I do now?
One of the Reflections for the Rescue challenges says to identify your biggest struggle in carrying your cargo well. Maybe it’s “I don’t know or love my God-given cargo“… Yes, Absolutely, Oh My Goodness! I just don’t know. At this point, I’m wondering if I ever will know.
What I do know is how I FEEL and I feel like that amazing tractor with all of the bells and whistles living in the dessert and I really desire to know where I belong.
Coffee cheers your way guys. Much love and hugs.