I recently read that Gwen Stefani had writers block for a few years but that following her divorce the writings just started flowing again. It was her outlet. Isn’t that when artists create their best work ? Well, I think that pretty much sums up my current stage of life. So journaling away I am.
David… David, the son of Jesse. I remember converting to Christianity in 2000. In my mind, that meant you couldn’t cuss, drink, smoke, kill, commit adultery, take revenge or hate anymore. Now, you had to follow all of the rules and be perfect. Refusing to go to church because I knew I’d never be good enough to be in that group, a friend of mine encouraged me to simply learn to pray and to read the Bible on my own. Start small. But the Bible was too hard for me to read. There were too many thou arts and sayths. But I had bought my son a children’s Bible and started reading stories to him. Once I finished reading certain stories I would want to know what else happened and then I would look it up in my full Bible (New Living Translation aka NLT Bible).
One night I read my son the story of David, the shepherd boy. His family saw him as less than the older sons. Nevertheless, as soon as the young David came, the Lord said to Samuel: “Arise, anoint him, for this is the one whom I have chosen” and David later became the King. Acts 13:22 says after removing Saul, he made David their king. God testified concerning him: ‘I have found David son of Jesse, a man after my own heart; he will do everything I want him to do.’ But as the story fast forwards into David’s adulthood, you can see how sinful David really was. He had an affair with a married woman and had her husband murdered. What? How could this be the man God chose? There was nothing godly about him from the outside looking in. Look at all the things he did wrong! I was utterly shocked reading about this chosen King and his laundry list of sins.
I recently discovered that someone has been sharing my sin list with others and conspiring schemes behind my back (hence the betrayal blog). Then a few days later I remembered just how many sins that person had confessed to me which included criminal activities (such as underage sexting aka distribution of child pornography that required legal action, illegal drug use, illegal drug deals out of her parents house who I knew well, drinking and driving nearly totaling her family members car, and most recently aiding her employer in tax evasion and fraud by making personal purchases through business credit card accounts). And though I knew about all of it, I never said a single word against her to others and continued to maintain her character and reputation. Yes, I tried to use my knowledge and influence in her life to teach her and help her but I never aired her dirty laundry to others. And why is that? Because it’s not my place and because …
Whoever goes about slandering reveals secrets, but he who is trustworthy in spirit keeps a thing covered. Proverbs 11:13.
Whoever would foster love covers over an offense, but whoever repeats the matter separates close friends. Proverbs 17:9.
When arguing with your neighbor, don’t betray another person’s secret. Proverbs 25:9.
A gossip goes around telling secrets, so don’t hang around with chatterers. Proverbs 20:19.
Matthew 7 says: “And why worry about a speck in your friend’s eye when you have a log in your own? 4 How can you think of saying to your friend, ‘Let me help you get rid of that speck in your eye,’ when you can’t see past the log in your own eye? 5 Hypocrite! First get rid of the log in your own eye; then you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friend’s eye.”
My encouragement to others who find themselves in a similar situation is this. There will be people in your life – especially those who are around you the most since they have the most access to you and all of your mistakes – that will point out your mistakes, flaws, and faults to others (or maybe to you… that happens a lot too). That’s one of the reasons so many marriages fail. Once you are around someone that frequently over a long period of time, you WILL see their sinful nature (whether its lust, drinking to excess, prescription drug abuse, anger, lying, stealing, greed…whatever it is, they will see it). But do NOT share that with others or use their weaknesses against them.
NEWS FLASH: at the end of the day, we are ALL like David. We have a laundry list of mistakes. Some that are seen openly and others that are hidden. Nevertheless, God CHOSE US and we WILL be in the lineage of faith despite that laundry list.
You can choose to believe what others say about you or what God says about you.
Coffee cheers your way friends.